Adriene Crimson

Little Birchy

adriene — Sun, 04 Jul 2010 03:21:14 +0000

I recently started a paper journal to document my job search process.
I misplaced it.
It is thoroughly frustrating for me to have lost this item.

However, I will not use this forum to extol the virtues of digital anything. I’ve lost blog posts, word processed documents and digital photos almost at the same rate as journals, printed papers/letters, and printed photos.

I’m just sad about this journal because it was the first one that I’d planned on looking back at in the future to get a hindsight view of my experience with the detail of my written notes added.

Perhaps that was just too much planning on my part. I’m okay with that but I miss my little journal. It was cute. Here’s what the cover looked like.

It made me happy and had a great binding. Sigh. I’ll miss you little birchy. I still have hope to find you in a random place where I will greet you with a laugh and some ink on your pages to celebrate.

Dream Journal – Entry 09

adriene — Thu, 03 Jun 2010 19:05:22 +0000

I was in a large, elegant house.
The bedroom was tan & plum colored.
It wasn’t my house but I felt at home there.
There was a drama about a thief and some quarters that only related to me slightly.

The best part was right before I woke up; I passed by a bread case that was FILLED with beautiful looking, grainy delicious bread – the kind I love to eat.
In waking life, I purchased a loaf of bread yesterday and in my dream I said “oh, look at all this bread. We better freeze that loaf we just bought so we can make all of this bread last”

When I looked up the meaning of seeing bread in dreams I got the following snippets (my dream book is still in storage so I rely on the interwebs and my ability to decide quickly from the myriad options):
- seeing bread in dreams is always positive
- bread represents staff of life
- lots of bread in a dream means your needs will be met

Given that I was let go from my job just over a week ago, I was pleased to have this type of imagery showing up in my dreams. The universe is telling me that I’m going to be A OK! Yay!

ps – I wish I could show you the image of the bread from my dream – it was so luscious looking for bread.

Bathrooms

adriene — Sun, 23 May 2010 06:03:57 +0000

I’ve hidden in bathrooms before
Hoping for the immenent to pass
Knowing that now had to be made
First

Dream Journal – Entry 08

adriene — Fri, 30 Apr 2010 16:55:17 +0000

I’m at an old school all night party in a high school gym.
There are giant containers of commercial candy everywhere.
I’m gathering up one of each of the flavors that intrigue me – I wish I could remember the names – they were crazy!
Someone had said something about some of the candy being only for pretty girls and brats and I slid across the waxed wooden floor, on my belly, in my dress similar to the one the Red Queen gave Alice in Tim Burton’s version and shouted “That’s meeeee! But I’m not prettteeeeeeyyyyy!”.

I forgot about it until I was kissing my cat, Timber, on the head this morning. So now I call her Candy Face.

Aperture of the Soul

adriene — Tue, 27 Apr 2010 01:39:38 +0000

Comments on my previous post inspired me to feel a little deeper into certain aspects of life and how change comes about, whether we want it or not.
I mentioned to Jim that there must exist “an aperture of the soul” that we can adjust when a new focus is needed.
This made me think of the artwork of my good friend Bob over at ratio22 – I knew he’d have an image that might be the 2D depiction of such an aperture and sure enough….

That’s one version. What’s yours look like?

Unresolved In Your Heart

adriene — Mon, 26 Apr 2010 23:07:56 +0000

I’ve been feeling a little off lately and think it’s because I’m having some trouble with my wrists which is making me both nervous about working as well as less inclined to get exercise. I decided to go to yogatothepeople today for a yoga class (gotta run – it’s in 30 min) and on their website, came across this poem that spoke to me and only me (it felt).

from “Letters to a Young Poet”
by Rainer Maria Rilke

I want to beg of you much as I can to be patient
toward all that’s unsolved in your heart,
and learn to love the questions themselves,
like locked rooms, or like books that are
written in a very foreign tongue.

Do not seek the answers, which cannot be given you,
because you would not be able to live them,
and the point is to live everything.

Live the question now,
perhaps you will then, gradually, without noticing it,
live along some distant day into the answer.

harmonize with actuality

adriene — Mon, 15 Mar 2010 22:42:04 +0000

Found myself wondering, anxiously, why I’m feeling a little melancholy this afternoon.

I noticed two stangers in front of me.

Two seats in front of me, a man was on an expensive “smart phone” with an “if found…” note hand written on a piece of medical tape stuck to the back. He was agitatedly twisting the frizzy hairs on the back of his neck. When he finished his call, he started twisting his sideburns in the same manner.
I thought to myself, “he’s so anxious”

The man sitting behind him was gently nodding his head along with the music coming from his headphones that was just barely audible to me. He was wearing a clean but faded hat, had soft eyes & wasn’t fidgeting at alla.
I thought to myself, “he’s feeling good”

From those observations, I came to the decision to put on my headphones & get a little company from music.

Then I thought that I could have it all wrong.
The man “feeling good” could have bee grieving, or on his way to an uncomfortable meeting…
The “anxious” man could have been full if excitement while he was on his way to meet a date or to get his haircut.

The soothing balm of The Dining Rooms Other Ink filled my sound field as I came upon @vesper7′s Twitter post with this quote:

Don’t cling or hold on to anything. Harmonize with actuality, with things just as they are. -Buddha

And so, I decided to record this series of moments, so as to harmonize with actuality.

Pear upside-down cake

adriene — Fri, 12 Mar 2010 05:29:26 +0000

I think I perfected the recipe…

Grilled pears
Nutmeg caramel
Organic pistachios

Summer flavor

adriene — Wed, 03 Mar 2010 18:01:17 +0000

I just made the below image my phone wallpaper & am caught up in the viscerality of my sense memory of summers past.
Summer has always been my favorite season. My birthday is on June 1st and always brings with it the feeling of fresh, bright, fun times. It’s the start of summer to me: the weather changes, people are happier, plants are lush, green & flowering. And there’s this other sensation that’s hard to put words but this image of a rusty piece of beach flotsam does it.

I took this image at Ocean Beach a few summers ago. I was playing with the macro settings on my S70 so it’s fitting that it would inspire a macro memory of summer.

Dream Journal – Entry 07

adriene — Mon, 01 Mar 2010 08:52:28 +0000

The other day I woke up to a dream where a group of friends and I were flying around without assistance.
It was natural to us but also fun and exciting. We were practicing our techniques and it felt super realistic ie angling forward or backward, moving the arms to turn, etc.
When we landed, I mentioned that it was an awesome full body workout.

I was sad when I awoke because I still feel a bit too heavy to be able to do this currently and I really need a full body workout that I enjoy doing regularly. I might just have to take up dancing to house music again because that is the closest I’ve ever felt to flying AND, when I was dancing often, I was in great shape.